Outlet for a Crowded Mind

Post 101

2008-11-30T15:29:00.000-07:00

Take a bow

2008-06-01T17:04:00.002-06:00

Well it was very hard to let go of this blog but alas it is time.
It actually worked out quite perfectly, this is my 100th post.

=)

What I learned today:

2008-04-28T21:56:00.001-06:00

Wind Waker is actually a pretty hard game to find now...

2008-04-24T12:13:00.001-06:00

Hard As Nails

2008-04-21T21:00:00.003-06:00

Everywhere it feels like people are as hard as nails. There is this shiny, cold metal exterior gaurding people's true feelings: worries, joys, anger, comfort and tears, what are people trying to hide? My insides feel like wet paper mache, like I could stick to anything at any moment... but then I also become hard. I know kindness is all around me but why do I feel points and receive only bruises? Do I do the same to other's?

You know what's the best thing ever?

2008-04-20T23:28:00.003-06:00

Searching for random Napoleon Dynamite pictures for a certain post and then coming across this:

This just makes me want to adopt random kids so that Halloween at my house would be awesome.

Jim and Pam

2008-04-18T00:18:00.004-06:00

I'm so happy to finally be watching a show that actually allows things to pan out like you want them. The Office is still doing fairly well, I quite enjoyed the two new episodes and was glad to see the Jim and Pam story evolve. I can tell that the writers have thought of a new way to add some of that old tension without the roller coaster.
Now we have to ask: When is Jim going to propose?

Snow Angels

2008-04-17T00:36:00.003-06:00

I just got home from a night out. I was admiring the snow the whole way home, as much as everyone is complaining about it, the snow tonight is absolutely beautiful. It was also an answer to prayer what with all the fires yesterday. Anyways, I pulled into the drive and sat for a couple minutes in my running car. I was looking at my neighbor's house, the ones to the left where the "messed up" kid and his family live. The snow was blowing off their roof and kind of cured into the porch near the front door. Now my eyes are pretty bad at night and I didn't have my glasses on so the way the snow was blowing it made a figure. There was an angel standing there. I got to thinking... I have never prayed for that family. They have lived there just as long as we have (over ten years) and not once had I prayed for them, and they definately have seen there fair share of problems.
It is funny...
I love God's little reminders. There is purpose in the snow and in the wind and in my thoughts.

Love can free us...

2008-04-16T17:24:00.006-06:00

Here I am away from the pleasures of the first world
Laid out before me who am I to breakdown?

Everyday I wake up,
I choose Love
I choose Light
And I try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Oh my baby don't be so distressed
Were gonna pull your test
It's time to be so brutally honest about
The way we know want for something fine
When we climb for higher ceilings
And push for happy feelings

And here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Plastic Bottles
Imported Water
Cars we drive wherever we want to
Clothes we buy at sweatshop labor
Drugs from corporate neighbors
We're not living the Good life
Unless we're fighting the Good fight
You and Me it's time to get it right

In the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Love can free us from all excess
From our deepest debts
Cause when our hearts are full we need much less

Yea i know we want for something fine
When we climb for higher ceilings
And push for happy feelings

But Here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

THE SUBMARINES

They also have such a cute story...

Thanks to Natalie

2008-04-15T13:49:00.000-06:00

D and D

songs that weather

2008-04-14T23:38:00.003-06:00

I have noticed that certain artist just sound better in different types of weather.
Headlights in the rain
Death Cab in the snow
Ben Kweller in the sun, blue sky, and warm

the lengths people go to are incredible

2008-04-13T23:11:00.001-06:00

just to make fake Legend of Zelda movie trailers

our faces wouldn't matter...

2008-04-13T21:57:00.001-06:00

the war that you're fighting.... has already been won

2008-04-11T07:25:00.001-06:00

As our hearts lay sleeping,
As our bodies rest,
The Heavens open up for us.
Put down your weapon, child,
And close your eyes,
Because you and your enemies
Are innocent tonight.

I never wanted you,
I never wanted you to go.

There’s a voice inside your soul
That resonates through your skin and bone,
Up through the blades of grass,
Underneath the feet of God’s only son.
The war that you’re fighting
Has already been won.

I just want to survive with you by my side.
With you by my side, I just want to survive.

Crooked mouth, quiet down.
Let your fists come undone.
Miscarried love will be reborn.
When we sleep,
The devil’s arms are tied.

The war that we’re fighting
Has already been won…

I never wanted this,
I never wanted this to go away.
I never wanted this,
I never asked for it,
I never meant to let it go.

I just want to survive with you by my side.
With you by my side, I just want to survive

- Sleeping at Last

Ba Ba

2008-04-10T23:34:00.001-06:00

The newest memember of the Fast family

2008-04-06T01:32:00.003-06:00

... and reason why I am up at 1:30 in the morning.

Gretel

in some places... I stay

2008-04-05T14:15:00.006-06:00

I was in Manitou Springs this morning. Shannon, Natalie and I had breakfast at P.J. Bistro, a place where the servers are Polish and there is no way to customize your order, although the most pleasant thing was the music: two Peter Bjorn and John songs (Amsterdam and Young Folks), Strange Magic by ELO (one of my all time favorites), and a Sondre Lerche song. After we ate we walked around a bit and explored the odd stores and tacky gift shops that Manitou is known for. I love looking at tacky gift shops! I don't know if its just that every item makes me smile or it reminds me so much of being a child and going on road trips to New Mexico, the Grand Canyon, and Salt Lake City, but I love it! There were also weird "fantasy" type stores, as in wizards, elves and crystal balls, many of which included signs for weapons. I was reminded of how some things about me will never change.

I will always be drawn to the fantasy realm and all who inhabit there
I will always secretly want a collection of Arrows, Samaria Swords, Knifes, Bows, Throwing Stars... etc
I will always love coffee and bookstores
I will always be obsessed with certain TV shows (Spongebob, The Office, Fruits Basket)
I will always be honest about music I like
I will always like doing things that remind me of my childhood
I will always want to learn how to play Dungeons and Dragons and never be embarrassed to admit it (although many have to told me I should)
I will always hold my friends and memories close to my heart
and I will always want to make bird and cat nosies (especially if it makes Abby say that I'm embarrassing)

Also, Abby gave Bart a bath today... amusing.

Post #83: if I had only one last thing to shout

2008-04-01T23:25:00.006-06:00

How much more would it mean if I said nothing and yet I speak for fear that my silence could never express feeling. Silence isn't always forgetful but when I hold my tongue when I should speak, who remembers? I remember, not the person I should have spoken to. Life is about sharing, but is who these things we share with equally as important?
I shift, I change, I grow, I understand and I question… what more could make me human? Time passes and people change, is it all that strange that I so look forward to the day when I can greet and hug and say "remember when…" Do people forget things because it hurts to remember and, if so, am I all that strange in trying to hold on?
It is those times that God shows you what heavenly things we have to look forward to that you realize what importance happens before that time. I know heaven is not on earth and I long for the day I can talk to and share in wonder with those who I've missed somewhere along the way. It is times like this that I really have a hard time waiting to be "taken away," but then I realize what plans lie ahead. There is meaning in every hand shake and smile. When you see some one, think of someone: say prayer. Time is short no matter how long it seems. There is no one I know now that I wouldn't want to know forever.

What I saw in those verses below, what God is faintly whispering… live everyday for God. Don't go out into the world thinking you're going to change things because then it becomes conceit. If things change it was because you were living for God and He can guide you in ways that create change. You will stumble and you will fall and you will ask why a lot… you will question, and you will bleed, but to see that light ahead is the only thing that sets anyone apart. When all is said and done, having faith in Christ is the only thing that will divide us because He is truth. I see myself no different than anyone else except this wonderful thing I have living and breathing in me. I never want to look at anyone and say that they "stupidly" have something missing… I want to share what I have found and what miraculous thing has been placed in me that gives me hope when all seems hopeless and something that keeps me going when I am weak. Flesh is internal suffering and Christ is cleansing, hopeful, extraordinary life!

YOUR turn

2008-03-29T13:13:00.006-06:00

"For you have been called to live in freedom, my brothers and sisters. But don't use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature. Instead, use your freedom to serve one another in love. For the whole law can be summed up in this one command: "Love your neighbor as yourself." But if you are always biting and devouring one another, watch out! Beware of destroying one another."
Galatians 5:13-15

"Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won't need to compare yourself to anyone else. For we are each responsible for our own conduct."
Galatians 6:4-5

"So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don't really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is the sin living in me that does it.
And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can't I want to do what is good, but I don't. I don't want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don't want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
I have discovered this principle of life - that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God's law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God's law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin."
Romans 7:14-25

I read Galatians 5 and 6 the other night before bed, in my New Living Translation, and then found a reference in Romans 7... these three passages really struck me and I line them up together. I would really like to know what YOU, you reading this now, think when reading these three verses together, even try looking them up in different translations or reading the whole chapters. Before I say anything about what I think, I want to know what God says to YOU. So if you read this please share your thoughts.

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

2008-03-28T17:34:00.003-06:00

Work has definately been more musical lately. It seems like one person will start singing a song and then it passes through everyone like a virus. It seems to have all started with Rosie, and the realization that if you sing a song it will be stuck in her head but make her very happy. She got Man Eater stuck in my head one day and I brought it up the next day and it was stuck in about two other people's heads. Then two days ago, everyone on the floor broke out into Hello Goodbye by The Beatles (I felt like it was a Cold Stone for a second but then I realized that we weren't getting tips). Today was definately the day to top all days. First Robbie says "hit me with the next one..." in some context and I start singing Hit Me With Your Best Shot and while this is happening Steve gets Turn the Beat Around by Gloria Estefan stuck in Kevin's head. So all afternoon we have just the main line from both these songs stuck in our heads. I think in order to get the songs out of our heads we sang about 9 other songs (including I Get Around by the Beach Boys) but the same are still stuck. And I hope whoever reads this gets a song stuck in their hand.

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Lost Words

2008-03-26T17:44:00.003-06:00

I realized today that I really have a hard time throwing away things I have written. Thoughts formed onto paper are so important to me, even when they're painful or immature. I love seeing where I've been and answer to prayers. I want to be one of those old ladies (like my Grandma) who has journaled all their life and can look back and remember everything. When I have kids I could remember what it was like to be in high school or have your heartbroken or be angry at your parents. I know it is important to leave the past but that is where I learned everything.

compelled to blog

2008-03-26T00:02:00.007-06:00

I should be in bed right now, but I feel compelled to blog.
Today was the first day I ever felt embarrassed about not being in school. It is true that it seems everyone I grew up with or am close to are in school right now. The only reason why today I felt embarrassed was that I ran into a girl I was on summer swim team with and for the second time (I have run into her before) I had to tell her I wasn't in school at the moment. I think it was just one of those things when it felt like I was years older and still doing the same thing.
On another note I feel like I've been asked the friendly "What's new?/What have you been up to?" questions lately and have failed to come up with an answer. I do have plans and really hope that I follow through on those but it will take time and saving of money. Right now I am some what stuck where I am, so I need to make the best of things. And in honor of making the best of things I am going to write out what I did today (with some visual aids) and maybe feel better about my current life.
I got to sleep in this morning (it is very easy to do this in the basement) not too late though, I managed to wake up by 9. I went upstairs and found that my dad took the morning off and was watching some TV. I sat and ate oatmeal and made myself (and later my dad) an Americano, I was too lazy to brew a pot of coffee. I got ready and then talked to Brittany for about an hour on skype, which was nice I hadn't talked to her since January. We made some more plans for my trip to fly out and visit her in London. Then I made myself a really good lunch with some leftover fish and found out that (a) a new episode of InuYahsa (my guilty pleasure anime show) was up on OnDemand and (b) Awakenings was playing free on OnDemand. So I spent the two hours before I went to work watching. Awakenings is a very good movie, that makes me cry a lot, it has been years since I watched it. Anyways, I went to work which was good as always. I got to have conversations with David, Garrick and Kevin. Garrick and I have made plans to play chess and talk about our lives, and Kevin and I talked about everything like we always do. Now I am at home and actually feeling light headed (and unfortunately so is Bart) from the fumes of the bleach cleaner I used to try and kill this nasty spider.

I'm glad I was able to write a good paragraph on my day and I could of course write more about the conversations I have at work. I really feel like I live for those people right now so I will work hard on being there for them and allow them to be there for me. I should also always remember the little things, it is what I do best =)

Understanding to not Understand

2008-03-23T22:08:00.005-06:00

I realize what an important lesson not always "having to know" can be. I find that so many people my age are searching like crazy for answers. Sometimes I really think that the answer is that you can't always understand. I have to calm myself with this thought when I struggle with God's plan for my life and the church. "How should things be?" I ask. God tells me through my searching that there is no way I could fully understand Him in this life... and He leaves me with no where to run to except for trust. To believe in God and His awesome power is to admit that there is no way you could understand on your own and then having the desire to rely on His wisdom. Submitting to God's wisdom is one of the hardest things for me, but I forget things like this so often.
It is funny that this is what I think of during the Easter Sunday service.

Trust in God! He knows what He is doing.

it is like looking into a mirror

2008-03-18T16:25:00.004-06:00

i hope my dreams don't come true

2008-03-18T16:17:00.001-06:00

Over the past couple of weeks I have had several dreams about high school. I really couldn't say why. Two were about prom, in the first one I was mad that alumni wasn't allowed to attend Highlands Ranch's prom, I even had a dress picked out. Then I dreamt about the after prom. The most recent dream I had was that my mom had convinced to "finish high school" becasue apparently I graduated a semster early and only completed the minimum requirements. Half way through that dream I realized that there is no way I am going back to high school.
Sometimes I wish dreams had deeper meaning but I draw a blank with these ones.

Label Free

2008-03-18T16:13:00.002-06:00

Something I will strive to do from now on, is to not label people. Whatever I know about a person I will never know enough to give them a "label". I think of how often people meet people and automatically find certain things that makes them not worth knowing. I admit that have done this but I have seen it be taken to extremes. Like in high school when Brittany and I were hated by a girl in our French class for where matching Harry Potter shirts. Alright, so people are weird and, yes, there are going to be plenty of people who are very different or unique. Is that really a reason to label or dismiss?

more little things

2008-03-10T20:46:00.003-06:00

... because I like them...

+ seeing four geek squad cars in the Starbucks parking lot
+ knowing that the person driving in front of you is trying to make you angry but not giving him the satisfaction
+ talking with my parents
+ hearing about just a portion of someone else's life
+ knowing what someone else is thinking
+ getting to know people through their blogs
+ amazing foam every time
+ running into people (literally)
+ parks
+ driving with the windows down listening to Sleeping at Last
+ convenient Kleenex boxes
+ smiling

I could go on for a lifetime and I think I will.

i have no idea what i am cabable of

2008-03-10T20:22:00.004-06:00

I don't like the looming post beneath this one. I will admit it was good to write (quite a nice "outlet") but still not my style. But no matter, on to the point. Ricci has a mission.
I was talking to my dad tonight and he had an idea for me which he says is something he could easily do but would be more difficult for me. I'm not sure... He said I should just try a different church each Sunday and see what kind of groups they have and what the people are like. This seems like a very reasonable solution to my current issues. Well I have been thinking about it over the past hour. I know I could do it, I have come accustom to doing things alone and I believe I could go to Sunday morning church alone. I will most likely get some looks or some over friendly people might attack me (heaven forbid), but I would love to do this. I love visiting other churches, they have such different personalities. So this is my mission, I will face it head on.

On a side note, tonight it could be proved that my mom is a better cook than Rachael Ray. My mom made a Rachael Ray recipe tonight (eggplant garlic roasted pasta crap) and I think it is the first time in my life that the whole family ended up snacking on baby animal crackers instead of the meal. We ended up discussing how the dish could have tasted better and when that recipe comes out and is tasted I'll have to have a follow up post.

A Moment of Truth

2008-03-08T12:29:00.004-07:00

This is going to be a hard post for me to write but this has been on my mind and for lack of a better outlet, I come here.
I am lonely, the loneliest I've been in a long time. I don't like being this way (who does) and it is really hard to reveal my true feelings about these things because I don't want to be pitied, I just want to talk. Lately when I've been around people I love it, it is an amazing blessing. Getting to talk to people and hear about their lives and learn, that brings me so much joy. I am happy that I can find so much joy in the smallest of interchanges, but then comes the night. It gets dark and I sit in my room alone probably thinking too much but mostly praying. It is a sad prayer, one that usually ends up with tears. Loneliness is such a trap. The last time I had experienced this it was truly a trap and I was aware of that. Two years ago my loneliness turned into depression which lowered my self-esteem which made it extremely difficult to be social. Now it is different, I am feeling the same feelings I felt at CSU except now I have high confidence (at least I think I do). I may be wounded in some ways but I am talking to people in ways I never thought I could before. But... how do you make friends? It is a stupid question and I know one that doesn't really have an answer but the place that I'm in I really have to ask. I wish I could just be humble about all this and really trust God that this is life and there are good things to come. It has been really difficult...
I'm going to talk about something else because I think I really lost my point. About loneliness... I've had a thought and I know others have also about how many lonely people there are (The Beatles know). And I used to think that everyone knew at least one point in their life what it was like to be truely lonely, to be trapped in loneliness. I don't think everyone knows, if they did there would be a lot more reaching out.
I apologize for the scattered points that I am trying to make and realize that probably only a few people even read this but I just got to let it out. And I ask how you make friends when you're living with your parents, working at Starbucks, can't find a college church group (which is ridiculous), don't want to force relationships, and everyone that is a friend is so far away... This world is rough...

"One Church Under One King"

2008-03-07T21:45:00.008-07:00

Sanctus Real always seems to release an album when I need it the most. I love Sanctus Real, not because I think their music is absolutely wonderful or talented, although it is certain catchy and singable. The lyrics are so blunt and genuine. They sing what they think and their pure thoughts are beautiful and so often they hit me so hard. They can take confused thoughts that get twisted and turned over and make these clear, real statements.
Songs about God's love, not knowing what to say except "thank you," knowing change is needed but seeing how hard it is, admitting that there are problems among the church but "we're tryin." Their words make me feel convicted, at peace and like I'm not alone.

I am slowly taking in their new songs from We Need Each Other. And although I am disappoint as I feel their overall music has taken a step back from Face of Love, a couple of the lines have hit me.
I'm excited to listen, learn and think.
God speaks to me.

My New Room

2008-03-07T16:02:00.003-07:00

There is half a wall, a sheet, and my amazing poster nerdiness.

It is cold and kind of spidery but it's home...

the three fictional characters I want to be like

2008-03-04T22:02:00.007-07:00

Cecil Mills from The Baxter
She is herself. She knows what she likes and who she is and she has really cute outfits and a pretty voice (when she doesn't have stage fright). I really just want to be me and be proud even of the nerdy things.

Tohru Honda from Fruits Basket
Yes she is an anime character but I admire her a lot. Tohru cares about everyone and always wants to be helpful. She's actually pretty extreme about it, like an good anime character, but there is much of an example in there. She also has beautiful thoughts and tries to find meaning in every day life.

Mercedes from The Count of Monte Cristo
First of all, she is gorgeous. I don't know why I just really like Mercedes's presence in this movie. She is also very faith and strong.

How can you not want one?

2008-03-03T21:43:00.001-07:00

Pictures I Love

2008-03-02T23:35:00.001-07:00

I just discovered that I can upload photos from my phone to facebook. I never thought I would get to share all my favorite pictures, but now I can.
amazingness

Sharing Miracles

2008-03-02T15:56:00.004-07:00

Church was interesting this morning. It was a missions Sunday and today it was all focus on China. The speaker was an Australian (funny how I've never heard an Australian speaker at church until a couple of weeks ago and here was a second one). I was a bit distracted in the beginning of his message, but he caught my attention after sharing pictures of some of the movement leaders and friends in China and then sharing stories. He simply told stories about the miracles happening in China and how people became believers. I thought of Paul sharing stories of the miraculous things God was doing. I think this is why I like hearing stories in church, it is real and I find that I learn so much from life experiences.
I've been thinking about why we don't see that many miracles here, or at least I haven't and I haven't heard many stories of miracles happening here. There are miracles yes, but I mean New Testament, rising from the dead miracles. I believe that people's eyes are closed in America. People believe a lot more in science, coincidence, and logical explanations than in a God's miracles. This is a reason why I believe God reaches people in America differently.
I've been singing, "open your eyes, look to the skies... tell everyone..."

"better than Seacrest"

2008-03-02T00:18:00.001-07:00

hello, good lookin'

2008-03-02T00:02:00.001-07:00

March 1

2008-03-01T18:04:00.004-07:00

Dear Diary,
Today was a beautiful day and I'm glad it was the first day of a new month. I just think the amazing weather will but the whole month in a good mood. Work was fine as it has been lately. I love how I can take my time and make every drink good and people can't yell at me for being slow. I also like when I can make every drink perfect and do it quickly. I felt very productive at work today, my head was very level. Plus I received a very nice compliment from a co-worker. On my lunch break I went to driving with my windows down (love it!) and listened to the new Headlights album (which is really good listen when it is sunny and warm out, not just rainy). While I was driving I saw a car with a license plate that said "toosexy" I defiantly laughed out loud and it may have been a snort. I thought it was worth noting.
I got home from work, after eating three petite vanilla bean mini scones (so good!), and helped my dad build a closest for my new "basement room." And now I have this song stuck in my head
from a Wal-Mart commercial about happy night workers? Who would have thought?

Bye for now.

I'm so tired...

2008-02-29T23:27:00.004-07:00

but I can't fall asleep.
It doesn't help that my computer's on and that I've had such a good blogging streak that I don't want to end it.

I've been thinking about how much I talk lately... I feel like after all those years of the "quiet Ricci" I have built up a lot. I have been finding myself making conscious efforts to shut up and tell myself that people don't want to hear it anymore. Unfortunately this come out at work and out at my mom. Well I guess most of the conversations happen at work but then my mom gets to hear about it later. I'm not quite sure where this talking freedom came from but I really hope that it stays.

What am I even staying up for that wasn't a good blog?

Oh and every time I look at my blog (I do that a lot) I see the video post I made a couple of days ago and then that song gets stuck in my head.
"... I'm makin' a lasagna"

Feburary 19th, how did I miss you?

2008-02-28T18:04:00.004-07:00

Headlights came out with a new album. I am happy to call this band one of my own, self-discovered bands, I don't have many so this makes me happy. They are the perfect "driving in the rain" band. I am listening to this album now and I like it already, it is much calmer than the first so better for the background music. And as before they have a neat album cover, it is what attracted me to them in the first place.

I'm not crying, it's just raining on my face.

2008-02-27T16:04:00.001-07:00

I love Starbucks!

2008-02-27T11:13:00.003-07:00

There I said it.
Starbucks Promises Customers Perfection
I suffer from loving my job, it is bad now. People at work were making fun of me for getting teary while watching the training video.
Oh, and after drinking four shots of espresso last night during training I can say that the espresso tastes better, not amazing but definitely better.

Hope for Hollywood

2008-02-25T13:49:00.004-07:00

And the Oscar goes to...
Two awards giving last night are hopefully the change that our "lovely" entertainment business needs. Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova won best music written for a motion picture and that only is outstanding. They were even up against three Disney songs and a "I had a hard life" song. Once was perhaps the lowest budget film I have seen in the theaters and was genuine and talented. I am so happy for them.
And then Diablo Cody wins for the original screenplay Juno, she can out of nowhere. I was excited to see that an independent received so many nominations, especially Juno, let's be honest no one would think it Oscar worthy. I am hoping this opens doors for movie goers and film producers, writers, actors, etc. to expand their horizons and really search for the talent that is out there.

God's Timing is Beautiful

2008-02-25T00:45:00.005-07:00

I just had one of those nights where I could look back and say "If this didn't happen, then this wouldn't have happened, and this would be different..." and so on and so further. I love when God gives me these revealing moments. Then I start to think of the future and all the things that will follow today and the things that make this time in my life different. I may begin to fantasies the things that might come but I always live in the comfort that God will exceed my every thought. God knows us and our lives, He knows perfect timing and through trusting Him I find so many wonderful freedoms. If I continue living for God day by day then I will be less likely to resist His call and His path for my life. This thought is such a comfort to me.

an addition to last night

2008-02-24T14:31:00.002-07:00

This was stuck in Rosie, Kevin and my head last night... just shows how such different people can think a like. This song makes me so happy.

I want blog about so many things

2008-02-24T00:37:00.004-07:00

It is late and I'm tried but I feel I could have so many things to say. I've been skipping through chapters of Blue Like Jazz and I just finished the one when he talks about going to Reed University. I was first struck by the mention of having spiritual experiences outside of church. It was a very simple thought but true. I've learned so much at church, I can't say that I've experienced great fellowship but I know churches provide that, but the things that truly bring God to life are in other things. I have found so much deep meaning in my own faith and beliefs after having conversations with people who are different from me. This brings up tonight, I had the most fun at work tonight, I missed having fun like that. Kevin and Rosie are two fantastic individuals and they really are individuals and I can just find amazement in how much they know. Shannon and I were just talking the other night about how people can be so smart about life and things that ultimately come from God but that final piece of the puzzle goes missing: salvation in Christ. Going back to Blue Like Jazz and the Penny's story (in this same chapter). Miller tells the story of Penny becoming a Christian and I love that story... God does not forget those people who push Him away and God knows how to speak to people. I cried at how great that story was... her friend that showed her you can have a relationship with God, her thoughts on Jesus as she first read through Matthew, and then the night that God spoke to her... I really recommend this chapter.
I think that's enough for tonight although I could go on.
Today was a good day =)

an ad on facebook

2008-02-23T00:04:00.003-07:00

I don't mean to make light of my current situation right now, but honestly? How sad can people be?
http://www.getyourexbacknow.com/just_break_up3.html

Office Time

2008-02-22T13:41:00.002-07:00

Karren is too short for Jim.

Is it arrogant...

2008-02-22T11:41:00.003-07:00

to love yourself?
I'll be honest, I love the why God made me. Yes, sometimes I may question His design but I love the way I was created. The more I understand myself and love myself, the more I can understand and love other people. God made us all in specific ways and the more we discover our gifts, faults, weaknesses, quirks, senses of humor, likes and dislikes the more we can see other people's selves and try to see how God made them.
My only longing is to find out how to show other people the way God made me. The ways I can share the joyful things I think of throughout the day. The way I can express hurt or comfort. I see all these things in my head but they don't come out, they're trapped somewhere. What good are words of comfort and joy if no one hears them?

The Price is NOT Right

2008-02-21T10:44:00.004-07:00

I did not discover until about five minutes ago that Drew Carey is the new host of The Price is Right. What am I suppose to watch at 10:30 on a weekday morning? I am really surprised that the show didn't stop after Bob Barker left. And why did Drew Carey bleach his hair? So many good questions, not enough good answers. I am going to go watch Arthur now, sigh.

Sifting Through

2008-02-20T14:00:00.003-07:00

So I was rereading some of my blog entries (I am glad I'm amused by the things I write) and I had to bring this picture back. Yes it has been the background of my computer since the day I found it but I realize no one except myself gets to enjoy it day in and day out. I didn't want to be depriving any longer.

i want to be a cat or a bird

2008-02-20T13:49:00.005-07:00

On the way to the bank today I saw a falcon perched at the very top of a tree, it looked strange considering that the tree was naked (no leaves) and had very thin branches. When I drove back from the bank he was still there, I am so jealous. Animals just do their "thing" so if I just had a "thing" it would be perched on a high tree, just watching... I also mentioned being a cat, those are just days I feel like being lazy or easily entertained... I want to be a cat...

1 Corithians 12-14

2008-01-27T19:28:00.001-07:00

Important reading for me today.

Pam's Art Show

2008-01-26T11:10:00.001-07:00

I just watched the commentary for The Office "Business School" episode and just had to bring this up. The commentary was done by three guys: Rainn Wilson, B.J. Novak, and Brent Forrester (the writer of the episode). At the end of the episode it is Pam's art show where, if you've seen the episode, she gets criticized and neglected by her co-workers that she invited to come. Pam just had a bad night. Well in the commentary they start talking about the final scene and some people had said that it made their girlfriend's cry. The three guys are talking about why that would be and they seem to come to the conclusion that it was because Michael was showing the childlike side of himself and that in some way was touching enough to cry. They focused on Michael the whole time and I just thought this was funny. I cried at the end of this episode, and I'm sure the other girls that had cried for the same reason, because Pam had this awful day where something she was really excited about went very wrong and even her boyfriend didn't support her like she hoped and here comes someone who gives her the praise she was hoping for all day. It did have to do with Michael's sincerity and childlikeness but really it had to do with Pam. I just thought it was funny to hear how the men guessed that the scene was touching and what it really was. For me, I ask, "How could they not see that?" ... I really don't have much of a conclusion.

Good Habit, Unrealistic Goal

2008-01-18T15:20:00.000-07:00

So I failed posting every day this month... sometimes you just get busy. But, I have posted more in this month then every before!

January 15

2008-01-16T01:04:00.001-07:00

Oh what joy!
God made us for human interaction. His intention was not for us to hall ourselves up in a room only looking and talking to Him all the time. How can we fully love God without also loving his work and creation? When I think of the joy and growth I experience from relations with those around, I think about how much greater my relationship with God should and can be. He loves us more and knows us better than anyone else could, how can we ignore this? Why not run to Him first? Why not smile with Him, laugh with Him? The separation that lies between us now is sad, but the time will come when the relationship I have faith in will one day become my full and complete reality.
I was planning on writing about my day today but when I think about how I was fortunate enough to meet with and talk to so many of wonderful people in my life and in this world... and how I started off my day reading God's word.... He overwhelms me...

Dreams Do Come True

2008-01-14T15:52:00.001-07:00

Every time I have to open at work (be there at 4:15am) I am hoping in my head that I wasn't suppose to open that day and that I could just go home and go back to bed. Well... it happened this morning and it was wonderful. I got up and ready and showed up to work to find out that I was actually suppose to be in three hours later. So I went home put on Monsters, Inc. drifted in and out of sleep and then got up and went by McDonald's for a well-balanced breakfast before going into work. I had a happy day, I was still tried by the end of my shift but I felt like I actually got a morning. I should just try to get up and ready two hours before I have to be anywhere and then just fall back asleep.
Yep, it has been a pretty uneventful day.

Church

2008-01-13T15:17:00.001-07:00

I'm glad I went to Cherry Hills this morning. Jim Dixon just started a series that is perfect for his style. He's calling it Q&A and the congregation could submit questions that he would answer Sunday morning. Well he has compiled the questions (there were over 400) into categories. Today was Science and the Bible, he mainly talked about the different ideas surrounding creation and evolution, with scatterings of other topics. He is so logically and clear in his explanations, and he told us what he believed but also made it clear that we need to respect those with opposing opinions. He just kept saying how the most important thing is the belief in Christ and talked about how there shouldn't be division among believers. Jim also talked about how we just need to have faith and trust God through the mysteries, he references this verse:

"When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely."
- 1 Corinthians 13:11-12 (NLT)

To Sean

2008-01-12T12:09:00.001-07:00

I figured out what the Johanna
song in Sweeney Todd reminds me of. It reminds me of Maria from West Side Story: "Maria! I just met a girl named Maria."
Aren't you happy for me? I know you were probably hoping for a sweet note from your girlfriend, but this is me.

By the way, "We'll be human again."

(And people wonder why I don't blog very often)

I miss Josie

2008-01-11T16:43:00.001-07:00

New Things

2008-01-11T16:07:00.001-07:00

New people and new places can be hard... I am so thankful God is getting me out of my comfort zone, and for the longest time I thought that could only happen by moving away.

how does he do it?

2008-01-10T12:06:00.001-07:00

If you listen just right, you can almost hear it
The symphony of secrecy, life, and fear
(the search for love, but finding fear)

Like a moth to the flame we become helpless
To the beautiful ghost
That true love sheds.

We all are running our very own races,
Set upon the most dangerous of places.
Are through it all,
We are left with a void in our chests,
We're aching to fill

The doves come to gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through the mouths from which we speak.

God will you help us understand the meaning of it all?
Will you send your angels down to us at our every call?
Sometimes it seems the world is passing us
Faster than my eyes can adjust.

I can't decide if I'm living or I'm dying,
So I test your love and I test your love,
I test your love.

The doves come to gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through us now....
The doves come to gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through the mouths from which we speak.

Like a moth to the flame we become helpless
To the beautiful ghosts
That true love sheds.

- Ghost, Sleeping at Last

2008-01-10T11:34:00.001-07:00

Ariel's Hair is Rediculous

2008-01-10T11:19:00.001-07:00

Aimee, Jen and I were just talking about this last night. Then stumbleupon brought this site up.

I gave in...

2008-01-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

So after all the debate, I changed my blog. It's still not extra special but I think it looks a bit cleaner and I like the green/trees. I'm going to try to blog everyday for the rest of this month... even if it is just a blog like this... Hurrah!

Denver Light-Rail

2008-01-09T14:22:00.001-07:00

I wish I blogged when I rode the light-rail. I was just thinking about the little stories I could have told. Like when I was sitting across from a young lesbian couple (tattooed, pierced, and colored hair) and next to an older lady, and when the guy came by to check for tickets on of the young girls obviously didn't have one. She was sifting through her bag and somehow the older lady slipped her a recite for a ticket. It was an amazing group effort and the security guy bought it... And then there was the day when I was so overwhelmed (actually this happened more than once) that there were so many people in the same space but we were all alone. At times like that I wanted to say Happy Birthday to the lade with a balloon or ask the man next to me how his book was or to just sing along the song that I was listening to so that everyone would be in a good mood like I was. Anyways, those are the things I would have blogged about.

If I could live anywhere...

2008-01-08T16:47:00.000-07:00

I would live in a tree.

I was thinking about how I'm moving into my parents basement and how much I would miss having a window. I would miss the tree outside of my window. I would miss when it is windy and the neighbors light shines threw their tree's branches at night and make creepy moving shadows on my wall. Yep.

The Golden Compass

2007-11-29T11:38:00.000-07:00

After receiving two emails and one facebook group invite to "not support The Golden Compass" I'm annoyed. This whole thing has received way too much attention and hype and really there is just going to be backlash. No, I don't support Phillip Pullman and his ideas but I have read the books and frankly I think there is very little to worry about. Kids that read these books and are smart enough to understand Pullman's references to God and the Catholic church will still see the books as fantasy. In really life there are not talking polar bears, witches and different worlds. Just as the meaning of demons and angels is changed entirely, they are like the changing of the word gay. Whatever statement Pullman was trying to make about religion is lost in a fantasy story. Maybe I was just never shaped by a book as a kid so it is hard to imagine that these books could do that, but I just wish there wasn't a big deal made out of it. If no one said anything and the movie came and went things would be the same as always, the attacks against God and Christians would be the same. The way movies are headed right now, The Golden Compass should be the least of our worries.
I just have to say one more thing about an article I just read that is blowing things where they shouldn't be. It said that the theme of the books was that the main character was on a mission to kill God. This is not true at all and anyone who read the books would know this. To me the ending of the series of books was the most painful thing to read and I was actually embarrassed for Pullman for writing things like he did. I'm going off in an entirely different direction again, but I would really only be upset if they made the next two books into movies The Subtle Knife and The Amber Spyglass, for sure those movies should not be supported. But all the same, this should not be made into a big deal, it will come and it will pass.

Yay for my Lit class

2007-11-15T17:01:00.000-07:00

The one class that I like this year and mainly all because of the teacher. He gives us interested assignments, and now in the poetry section he asked to read 26 poems and take a line from each and put them together to create our own poem. I was kind of proud of mine, so here it is:

We die soon.
(collage poem)

The rhythm of life.
You were born, you had body, you died.

We smile but, oh great Christ, our cries.
Flesh that mirrors Him will some day die,

I said I wouldn't,
Damnit: No tears.

Blood-stained
Heart-filled, head-filled

With hurting love; the music they wrote
Bewitch bewilder.

Do a little dancin'
Listen closely:
You'll hear feet

A lazy sway…
A lazy sway…

To sweep…
Same motion, same lullaby

Waltzes
One on one

Do the dirty boogie.

Dance! Whirl! Whirl!
Dance.

Shiver you hands in dance.
The verse will die – as all mean do –

We die soon.

… the poem undone undone
Write what you feel,
Agitate your heart, your pen into motion

… the poem undone undone

Relax now and go with this poem.
Move & roll with this poem.
Walk casually/indefinitely

Feel the soul grow deep like rivers.
Does it dry up

We die soon.

Feel the joy of undeep and unabiding things.
See how beautiful…

We die soon.

I just can't stop now

2007-11-13T00:27:00.000-07:00

This video came up as a suggestion after the conflict resolution video on my last post and I have to laugh. This had to have been someone's horrible school project.

on a lighter note

2007-11-13T00:21:00.000-07:00

I laugh because my post (and the ongoing seething) reminded me of Oscar's overreaction to Angela's poster.
Skip to a minute and a half in:

This is the way it's going to be...

2007-11-13T00:01:00.001-07:00

I've heard about the comments regarding my blogs appearance. I can only say that it will stay the way it is, at least until I am finished admiring it (you heard me). Yes it doesn't look amazing or enticing, but hey, its a blog that I hardly ever post on and is hardly ever read. To me it is very fitting. I made the picture I used during my horrible year at CSU and just in that it means a lot to me and I was very glad to use it. I did the rest on paint, this reminds me of the website I made 4 years ago, and I remember it was a late night when Aimee and I were watching Romeo and Juliet, which I can say is a very rare accuracy but made for a good memory. I guess I just don't see the appeal of having a really great looking blog. Is this person really like this or are they kind of full of themselves. It reminds me of myspace and I am sick of feeling bad if my page doesn't look as great as the guy's who knows every html code. I could probably go on but I think I'll stop here and just say that if you don't like the way my blog looks just come out and say it. I think I want to stop blogging if I knew that people could be snobby about it... *grumble* *grumble*

the title of my blog

2007-10-22T13:34:00.000-06:00

So it is becoming increasingly obvious that I have a bad, almost critical, obsession with The Office. I realize the title of my blog is really playing out, lately my mind has been crowded with The Office.
Good things have come of this though. Thanks to The Office Sean and I were able to easily find characters to dress up as for Halloween (three hole-punch Jim and Pam the cat). Plus I discovered a new way to suffer through my film class, or I should say my film teacher. I am going to try and relate as many things that happen or are said in class to The Office. On another note, bringing up my film classes, I have been suspicious that some guys in my class have created a "code word." Whenever my teacher says something stupid or awkward or sexist/racist, I believe, they say "cookie." I am conducting further research on the matter so I may return with updates.

more of the office

2007-10-16T13:50:00.000-06:00

yes, I am obsessed with Jim and Pam

2007-10-16T13:46:00.000-06:00

... but not enough to make videos about them, only to watch them.

This one was actually really well made.

Do you ever feel like you blog about the same things?

2007-10-11T16:17:00.001-06:00

I saw a bumper sticker that said "I am an American." That to me says a lot in itself (and if you don't get it, well I'm sorry).

Also, the down side of having a red car: it apparently attracts mosquitoes or one mosquito that would not leave.

Peek-a-boo FREE Tricks & Treats for You! Get 'em!

hmmm

2007-10-03T17:01:00.000-06:00

I had to comment on how the article I posted about the praying mantis eating a bird was on the Bird Watchers Digest website. If I could be an absolute loser about something...
On another side note, I wonder if all the bird watchers have something against praying mantises.

I had to blog about this because I don't have a diary.

2007-09-22T23:05:00.000-06:00

Sean took me out on a date tonight to a restaurant in Cherry Creek. We parked in the parking lot on the west side of the mall, by Whole Foods and the place I got my haircut when I was a little kid. It is just a crappy little parking lot and almost entirely empty at 8pm on a Saturday. Anyways, setting in place... We, first off, saw a leaf bug, like this (just kidding), climbing on the overhanging wall in the strip mall by where we parked. This is the second leaf bug I've seen in all my life (the big real ones at least) and the second over the past couple of months and the second I've seen with Sean. Now, I forgot to mention that I had seen a big (what I thought was a moth) bug flying near Sean earlier and it kind of disappeared. I thought that this was the leaf bug, I was wrong. We walked only two steps and as calmly as I could say it I told Sean that he had a praying mantis on his shoulder. I don't know if anyone else thinks this is a crazy as I do but yeah... crazy! A praying mantis landed on Sean's should tonight. And that's what I had to blog about.

the perks of having a red car

2007-09-08T15:18:00.000-06:00

So today on my way home from work I realized what was great about having a red car (such as mine). My car attracts bugs, but not just any bugs, special bugs. The first one I noticed was on my way to work a couple of days ago. I had never seen a bug like it, long and slender, yellow-green with black spots and the cutest face. It rode with me on my windshield all the way to Starbucks and then it flew away when I opened my door. Then today I was followed by the brightest yellow butterfly I'd ever seen. It almost flew in throw my window. And then when I got home it attracted an interesting little bee. The bee landed upside down, so it was basically rolling on the roof of my car.

Bumper Stickers

2007-09-04T16:44:00.000-06:00

I want a bumper sticker. They are such funny things to mean. Usually people enjoy being very obnoxious to the person behind them. Some are way to small to read and can only be fully understood in a parking lot. Parking lots are the best places to view bumper stickers. That's what I want, a parking lot bumper sticker. I would like to make a line of bumper stickers, only made with the small font so it could be only for the enjoyment of those on foot. As I am writing this I am looking for examples so that I can post pictures on this blog, haven't found any yet, only the annoying ones:

And the ever creative:

Ok this one makes me laugh a little:

My Faith

2007-08-15T01:53:00.001-06:00

Where I see Jesus:
in the person who smiles at you when he opens the door for you
in the first drop of rain that hits me on the tip of my nose after a difficult morning
in irony
in being scared of the dark but still feeling safe
in playing board games, card games or video games with friends
in movies that move you

a true needle in the hay stack

2007-08-08T17:39:00.000-06:00

Just now I was looking through the "straw" type material in the base of our fake tree. I was looking for a thumbtack with a clear top. I know it was there because I just threw in there so I could vacuum. I was looking for awhile and realized how ridiculous and difficult the task was. The phrase "finding a needle in a hay stack" struck me for obvious reason, and now you know what the tittle of this blog was really about.

Not bad for not entries for two months. What happened to July?

The Powerpuff Girls

2007-06-14T14:36:00.000-06:00

I was just listening to the two Beatles CDs Sean had just given me when I remember this one episode of powerpuff girls. It was when all the villains got together and became the Beat-alls and practically the whole episode was lines from Beatles songs. They could do it so they did. I wanted to find that episode on youtube so I could post it but I could only find one with commentary (lame). So instead I found my favorite episode, (hey, it was a time in my life) enjoy:

It does take awhile to load, but be patient!

Best parts about this episode (this is after I had watched it) is that Blossom really reminds me of Natalie when we would play when we were little and they are playing with a Nintendo 64, amazing!

Found

2007-06-09T14:21:00.001-06:00

I am doing laundry, listening to Butch Walker and flipping through the best coffee table book ever, Found. It is just a collection of notes and pictures people have found. I love this and I don't know but it reminds me of youtube, just a collection nobody's being themselves. I like the pictures the best though, pictures are funny things, I wish I had more. I guess it is just like my last blog, what is going on in that picture?
My favorite find was these pictures of an old lady with white hair. She had taken about five rounds of pictures in a photo booth and there all just the top half of her head. It reminded me of Amelie, I love that movie, I think I'll watch it as I finish my laundry.

How can you look at this and not laugh?

2007-06-03T01:46:00.000-06:00

For some reason this picture showed up on a search for the artwork for Rocky Votolato's album The Brag & Cuss. It is currently my computer's background and I am currently laughing.

2007-05-30T20:26:00.000-06:00

Heaven Breaks

It always starts like this,
A harmless and simple thing to fix.
Contagious and spreading quick…
Like cracks in ice,
Wholly claiming our lives
While we sleep.

We’ll pray for Heaven’s floor to break,
Pour the brightest white on blackest space,
Come bleeding gloriously through
The clouds and the blue.
Forcing one place from two,
Killing formulaic views,
Only love proves to be the truth.

When heaven meets the earth,
We will have no use for numbers
To measure who are and what we’re worth.

When Heaven meets the earth,
We will have no need for mirrors
To tell us who to be
And where we fit into this awkward point of view.

When angels meet the earth, may our bodies be light.
When angels meet the earth, may our heavy hearts untie.
When angels meet the earth, may our bodies be light.
May our bodies be light for you.

from the Album Keep No Score

"Will you come to your father's?"

2007-05-29T00:15:00.000-06:00

I'm sitting with the roommates watching Romeo and Juliet (the modern one) and changing all the fonts and colors on my blog and then I felt like writing. I'm not a big fan of this movie but we were talking about how well it was done. Working with the original dialogue in a more modern setting required amazing acting. We were talking about all the movies we really like, movies where the writers, actors and director work really hard and take there time. There are two sides to movies, just like in music. There's the one side that is people with passion and longing to create something worthwhile. Then there is the money making side, which is funny to me because making money in the music and movie industry is so rare. Imagine... if only the first side existed... sigh...

A response to everyone who thinks that they think too much.

2007-05-24T00:05:00.001-06:00

I love to think. Sometimes I forget how much I love it and I realize that is when I haven't spent a lot of time in thought. I haven't thought very much, very deeply lately. I've been busy and my mind has been elsewhere. I have been uncreative and unorganized in my mind. Like right now, I'm getting way off topic. What I wanted to say, in these horribly written sentences, is that I believe thinking a lot can be entirely beneficial. As long as there is some kind of purpose to the thought. A beginning and an end. A start and finish. Don't just let thoughts float in and out or swirl around aimlessly, line them and interpret them.
There are some things I loved about all the time I spent alone in Ft. Collins, my thoughts were so rich and fruitful and it was like God was there listening and enjoy my them as well. I was so creative and I wrote things that I could reread and be proud of. If I had problems I would break them down in my head, take time to look at all the sides and then put it into a realistic perspective. I'm not sure if this makes sense, but basically thought was sometimes my outlet... it is kind of like how I used to be really got at solving math problems in my head.

i kind of typed a lot of nothing

2007-05-22T02:03:00.000-06:00

It's sad, I haven't been able to write lately. I was looking at my blog and realized this nothing like what I normally write. Normally I would just sit down at my computer and say the first thing on my mind which would usually form into some kind of loose thought. I have made myself do this right now, I have nothing to write about but I will write and it will be something. I guess I could talk about my day:
Today started off... in probably the worst way possible. I was pulled over for my illegally tinted windows on the car I bought two weeks ago that still had plates registered for my old car. Long story short, the officer said that he was not going to impound my car but I need to register my car as soon as possible. This all was on my way to work.
So 15 minutes late to work... someone asks me what happened and as soon as I get into it the tears start to well up. Its been awhile since I've cried so I knew that if I started I would not stop, so amazingly, I sucked it up. Work was fine, it actually went really well. I had lunch with Sean which cheered me up very much.
I was on my way home when I found out that Josie (my dog) had not been put to sleep as I thought, my dad never informed me that she was going to be okay (at least for now). This left me in joy and in rage... a very difficult combination.
Sean made me feel better, I love him.
We made my house more amazing, or maybe just amazing... I'm not quite sure if it was amazing before.
Then I kicked the love of my life out so that Brittany and I could hang out (she just got back from school). She came over and we watched the legend of zelda cartoons (hill-arious) and then Aimee joined us and we talked for awhile. It was a serious talk, something we're going to have to face soon and it is and shall be difficult.
Anyway, we ended up watching when a stranger calls and its funny because Brittany parked really far away and we had to walk her to her car afterwards.... yeah...
Now I'm up blogging and then I'm going to watch The Office and go to bed.

There are no ordinary days.

Best Day Ever

2007-05-13T00:38:00.000-06:00

So it may be a clique title but it is true. The day started by waking up to Sean making breakfast in my kitchen (Jen let him in). He made some amazing french toast. Enough said about that. Soon after my mom called to say that they were on their way with some furniture. The brought over things that worked really well and were going to try to move all my furniture over. So Sean and I headed off to help ten but first went by the moving sale down the street. I found a 50 cent chess set, plus Sean picked up all we needed the start learning to play dungeons and dragons! Well, we managed to get all of my furniture moved and my new bed (its basically new) felt amazing. I'm not sure if I'm making sense, but to end this wonderful day Sean got front row tickets to the killers at red rocks AND hot hot heat is playing! Now I am watching Freakazoid on tv links.... what a wonderful day...

The New Place

2007-05-08T13:02:00.000-06:00

For the past two nights I have been sleeping on a mattress pad in the loft of a practically empty town home. For entertainment I have my computer, music and two roommates (which is plenty) and besides this I have the bare minimum. We have no furniture and no food so I didn't eat until I got to the tattered cover (which had very good soup today). This just proves to me how few things are actually needed. Its going to be a slow process to make my new house into a home, but for now I kind of like it. And although I'm not at school right now, I feel more productive than ever.

2007-05-08T11:50:00.000-06:00

I was thinking about Id-Ra-Ha-Je today. Just listening to the few worship songs I have on my computer reminded me. I really want to go back and serve there, in anyway I can... and I hope I can.
Then I started thinking about Ft. Collins and the connection between the camp where I was a kid and the campus where I grew up. I realized they are the two places that I was closest to God. They were places where I could feel Him and he walked beside me and there was passion in my as I sang. I held on to Him as I always should. I smile and remember the wonderful times I had spent with Him. There will be more, many more.

the rain is confused and thinks that it is snow

2007-04-24T16:26:00.000-06:00

The title is actually all I wanted to say... what a weird day for weather.
I think Sean and I are going to go back to my house and watch more of The Office.

Orange Mocha Frappacinos

2007-03-27T11:46:00.000-06:00

Yes, I work at Starbucks but I cannot spell the drink names.
Yesterday someone in the Drive Thru ordered an orange mocha frappacino and I laughed (very hard). And of course no one else with a headset on had seen Zoolander. I was going to ask the girl in the car if she had seen the movie and was quoting it or thought we really had that drink, or was trying to be funny, but she was gone before I could come over. Darn!
This has brought me to finally bring my movies to work, so that everyone can watch them on lunch breaks.

Freak Rain Showers

2007-03-27T00:39:00.000-06:00

There are always a lot of little things.

Listening to music in the car with the windows open.
Being told that I received the last chicken wrap at chickfila, but not really caring.
Hearing someone admit to being a complete loser and then everyone having a laugh about it.
Figuring out that I have brothers.
Smiling about a voice message.
Watching a coyote walk across the street on my way home from work.
Embarrassing myself by laughing aloud when I'm alone watching The Office.
Freak minute long rain showers in the middle of the night.

Today was a good day.

On Our Way

2007-03-26T13:00:00.000-06:00

So I gave in and created a blog.
I made a mix last night that I've been listening to all day. I need a mix for every mood, if only I had access to all the music I wanted, and to the time I wanted.

This is a horrible first blog but I really just want to see how it looks.